I have never been known for doing things the “normal” way. But recently I quit my job—during a recession—with no plans to work. Definitely not normal! In fact, the representative at Anthem wished me well on my job search and was shocked when I told her I wasn’t looking. I would have never imagined this either, but God had other plans.
The only way to describe how I’ve felt over the past 6 months is “restless.” I knew there was something else out there for me, but I didn’t know what. Like all working mothers, I felt guilty. Guilty for missing T-ball games, guilty for missing bedtimes and guilty for day after day peeling kids out of my arms to leave for work. On top of this was the feeling that I was robbing God. When God called Bryon into the ministry, he called our whole family. Like it or not, we have been set apart. And I was trying to avoid it.
Changes at work made it a convenient time for me to reevaluate my priorities in life. As I often do, I made a list of pros and cons (yes, I’m a geek). I had to weigh options such as “How can I waste all that education I have?” with “If I’m at home I can be more involved with my kids’ education.” Or “Will I ever work again?” with “I’ll have more time to support Bryon’s work.” And “We won’t have money for a nice vacation.” with “I won’t miss another event in my children’s lives.”
I set my list aside and asked God in prayer for direction. A few days later, I looked at my list again and it was crystal clear. My con side was a list of worldly things—money, prestige, power and my pro side was a list of spiritual things—service, mission, mercy. And then I understood what my next calling was. Even though I was doing good work where I was, the work I was supposed to be doing wasn’t there. And our family was blessed with the ability for me to change directions. God was telling me “You who are weary, come home.”
I haven’t figured it all out yet. But I do know that my family is at peace. And that I am ready for whatever else God has in store.
Great blog. I am very proud of your obedience to God in spite of all the difficult ponderings. I know God will bless your faithfulness and godly attitude. Have fun with your precious children!!
Annie, I do not know you; but you all have been a blessing to my sister, Barbara Newman and her family, many times. Anyway, I applaud you for being bold enough to step out alongside your husband and be there for ministry. The folks at the church will appreciate it very much. Of that I am sure. I will be praying for you as you walk this new path.
As your mother-in-law, I know you would not have made this decision lightly and that you will put your heart and spirit into any endeavor that God leads you. You are a wonderful wife & mother and the people of Big Island has acquire another asset to their community and church with another LePere that sees beyond the mountains. Love you, Theresa…David feels the same.